June 5, 2019: It would have been our 6th wedding anniversary

We were married June 5, 2013.

We met in January 2009.

Teresa shared the photo below (with the yellow background) to my wall on May 8, 2018. She posted lovely things on our actual anniversaries too — and many other times, and privately, in email, or in person, and many other times, just because. This popped up in my memories on May 8, but I saved it for now. (Image description at end of post.)

Teresa has been telling me what’s in the post below literally since the day we met in person (after a very brief time talking online after meeting through Match(dot)com) in 2009.

I always, *always* felt the same way.

Today would have been our 6th wedding anniversary. 💔

I don’t have (or want) sleeping pills, despite my ongoing insomnia, but I’d be lying if I said I’ve never thought about taking her leftover Oxycodone. I haven’t….

Did not include this in my original FB post for obvious reasons. FB would have “helped” by shutting my account down until I got whatever the consider “help” which wouldn’t have helped me in the slightest. 

“I Don’t Want To Get Over You”
by The Magnetic Fields

I don’t want to get over you
I guess I could take a sleeping pill
And sleep at will
And not have to go through
What I go through
I guess I should take Prozac, right?
And just smile all night
At somebody new
Somebody not too bright
But sweet and kind
Who would try to get you off my mind
I could leave this agony behind
Which is just what I’d do
If I wanted to
But I don’t want to get over you

‘Cause I don’t want to get over love
I could listen to my therapist
Pretend you don’t exist
And not have to dream of
What I dream of
I could listen to all my friends
And go out again
And pretend it’s enough
Or I could make a career of being blue
I could dress in black and read Camus
Smoke clove cigarettes and drink vermouth
Like I was seventeen
That would be a scream

But I don’t want to get over you.

YouTube Link: https://youtu.be/RnAM4SliBWI?t=23

Image Description for my friends with screen readers:

You are my heart,
my soul, my treasure,
my today, my tomorrow,
my forever and
my everything!

You are my heart, my soul, my treasure, my today, my tomorrow, my forever, and my everything!
T didn’t make this graphic, but she told me these words all the time.

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