February 23, 2019: One Month

February 23, 2019.

It is exactly a month since you died, Teresa. And I am NOT okay.

Every day is the first day all over again.
It doesn’t feel real.
It does feel agonizing.
I can’t sleep. Not really.
I stay up until 6 or 7 or 8am until I can’t do anything else but sleep.
But I’m awake again within a few hours.

I may sleep on and off throughout the day, but it’s broken sleep.

Eating is sporadic.

I would give everything I have to have you back.
I’m not ready to be your widow.
I miss you so much.

My whole world is shattered.
I’m broken.

Teresa loved this song (“You Got It”):

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